I was Ten Weeks Pregnant
I was ten weeks pregnant, and it will stay at that. Last March 3, while I was undergoing TVS, my OB's voice changed and said that the baby has no heartbeat. She then explained to me what she was seeing on the ultrasound. It took long for me to process what she was saying. I only heard that the baby did not have a heartbeat. In my mind, I want to get out of bed and go to my husband. I could not accept what my OB was telling me. Finally, she said that she will schedule me for D&C the following Saturday. I felt an emptiness in me. My heart was heavy. I would smile and even laugh, but it felt hollow inside. I would cry in the shower at times, in our bed at night. I tried to hold back tears while I was at work. The following Tuesday, I went to another OB for a second opinion. With deathly finality, she said that the baby has no heartbeat. She wrote down tests I need to take to check the toxicity level in blood. I took the paper, and with shoulders slumped, I left the clinic.